Friday, June 20, 2008

funnily enough. it's when people seem most happy, in truth, it's the total opposite. sure i can all smiles and laugh and joke. but that doesnt mean there's something bothering me.

weirdly enough that's the same reason why i hold people at arm's length. it's really about learning to trust others. sure i welcome you with open arms and all. but that doesnt mean that we're become siamese twins or whatever. even siblings dont achieve that within seconds. it takes TIME. something that everyone's pressed for.

sure my priorities arent exactly likes yours or his or hers. but that's what makes us unique and special right? or else we'd be this huge faceless sea of bodies. sighs.

i seriously cant wait to graduate. this school has brought nothing but trouble and misery. seriously for once i cant wait to grow up so i can leave all this behind. fck it.

i miss the gang. i miss talking about life with rach, raina and debs. gossiping and mad jokes with andria, lisa and kat. arguing and teasing with jon, kev and jess.

dear god

i know i havent been praying or attending church

or whatever yeah.

but give me the strength to get through with this.

amen.

what we could have been, 12:03 am.